Well, living with this disease has given me many challenges, I think having a relationship is one of the biggest.
Living alone for so long, you get used to the solitude. And I think growing older you discover a newly found appreciation for space and privacy. But there are times when I just want some company!
Don't get me wrong, my life now is good. I am generally very happy. I know that I don't need a man to be happy, but the desire to have a partner never changes. And now I have to be so much more intellectual about who I kiss and who I tell.
When I was first diagnosed with HIV, I (guess) I was lucky because the man who gave it to me was a long time bf. He was there from day one and even tho we haven't been together in years, he still stops by once or twice a year to see how I am doing. I like that. It makes me feel good, that he still cares.
Things with that man were very complicated and he was young. After a few years, I just couldn't take the issues anymore. It helped that I had discovered dating websites for HIV + people online. I felt like my options had opened up a bit and that gave me the courage to finally let him go.
My next shot at love was with another positive man who lived in the Midwest.
And here I am going to stop for now...
The Simpson's are on...
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